Monday, April 14, 2008

Change

One my friends just quit his job at this company (I think it's best I don't name that organization; therefore: short mother and Sun God guard rear (8) ) and is now preparing for CAT. This was a guy with real enthu for tech- he'd put an excellent AIR in GATE in third year with barely any preparation and cracked a few math-modeling contests at various techfests- and now he's become so disillusioned with the tech scene in India that he wants to go for an MBA. Another friend wanted to quit and play football, apparently. I was willing to sell my soul and study management in case the research thing hadn't worked out (it did, thankfully, and I'm going to Purdue this fall), or perhaps even sit at home and study for CAT/GATE/whatever in case I couldn't convert those calls this time.

So, yeah, work sucks.

P.S. Yeah, yeah, I know it depends on the company and all that, but whatever. I'm just pissed at these companies right now, for selling dreams and then selling short.

Sunday, February 03, 2008

Every Once in a While...

...I stop by my blog, and read a post or two. Take a look at my last post, wherein I say that Ayn Rand's philosophy doesn't quite cut it in the real world. I was reading this, trying to find adequate words that would express, in a sentence or two, exactly why her ideas wouldn't work, and it struck me: Rand's ideas are impractical not because the universe we live in is irrational (which it isn't), but because Man, no matter how much we wish it were otherwise, is not a rational creature. Evidence to that effect: Religion. Racism.

We are rational some of the time and in dealing with certain matters, but certainly not all the time and about all things. It would be irrational to believe otherwise. ;)

Perhaps we need to be rational only, or at least, about the big things. Y'know, about the things that matter. At the least, consider- rationally- all the options available, the consequences thereof, and then make a reasonable choice.

Friday, September 14, 2007

Of the Proper Balance of Things

Terry Pratchett, in my opinion, reached a pitch of greatness with Reaper Man that has seldom been achieved in literature. The book builds up to its climax, about a page of dialogue- well, more of a monologue, really- between Death and Azrael, the Death of Deaths. Death pleads with Azrael for a little time; time to restore, as he says, the proper balance of things. Into that page or so of dialogue is distilled the essence of modern (and what I believe to be more or less the Real Thing) philosophical thought. It is summarized superbly in Death’s final plea to Azrael: Lord, what can the harvest hope for, if not for the care of the Reaper Man?

The above line is one of my all-time favourite quotes, or lines of dialogue, or whatever. Death is an anthropomorphic personification, which, in English, means that he is the flesh-and-blood embodiment of humankind’s imagination: The Grim Reaper. In the book, he is sacked by the people who, essentially, form the Quality Assurance department of the universe; the same people who give the most boring presentations during induction briefings (in themselves an ordeal for unsuspecting freshers), and are consequently responsible for the phenomenon that, in corporate circles, is called Death by Powerpoint. Pratchett chooses to call them Auditors. Need I say anymore?

And why do they sack him? Because Death, being an anthropomorphic personification (typing which is a pain), is developing Personality. There is nothing wrong with his work, in that everybody who dies is collected and disposed of properly, but they can’t have him doing silly human things like pondering the existential, now, can they? The Auditors hate irregularities, and it is of course well known and, more importantly from the Auditors’ point of view, well documented, that Personality leads to irregularities. Ergo, he’s given the pink slip and an hourglass with his own allotted quota of time. This, for those unfamiliar with the Discworld, means that he is now human, give or take a little reality*. So, for the first time in- for want of a better word**- his life, Death can die.

He doesn’t like it. He’s always been fascinated by humans, and by What Makes Them Tick, but this lesson is hands-on. He learns, through bitter experience, (although he’d possibly known it forever) that there is no such thing as justice or mercy, and that hope is often a delusion, except in one case. And that case is (or was) him. This forms the crux of his appeal to Azrael. It goes like this:

Lord, there is no good order except that which we create…’

Azrael’s expression did not change.

‘There is no hope but us. There is no mercy but us. There is no justice. There is just us.’

The dark, sad face filled the sky.

‘All things that are, are ours. But we must care. For if we do not care, we do not exist. If we do not exist, then there is nothing but blind oblivion.

‘And even oblivion must end some day. Lord, will you grant me just a little time? For the proper balance of things. To return what was given. For the sake of prisoners and the flight of birds.’

Death took a step backwards.

It was impossible to read expression in Azrael’s features.

Death glanced sideways at the Auditors.

‘Lord, what can the harvest hope for, if not for the care of the Reaper Man?’

* * *

I made a statement in the first paragraph, one that a Professor of Literature would possibly hesitate to make, that I shall now try to justify. In reading classic works like those of Shakespeare, Milton and the like, I have always found myself looking for meaning, in that I read the hallowed passages and try hard to understand, or basically just feel something, y’know? It is probably a failing on my part that I have to look; but that is beside the point, for look I certainly do. Pratchett, to me, seems to be much more accessible and, critically, the easiest to relate to. The characters he has created are amazing and, like those of Shakespeare, they are many things: they are brave, cowardly, smart, funny and sometimes all at the same time. Most of all, however, they are human.

However, one aspect of Pratchett’s writing irritates me: he tends to oversimplify certain issues. It is not so much oversimplification, however, as it is a sacrifice of accuracy and/or logical coherence for the sake of clever wordplay and a couple of catchy lines. It is a temptation that most of us who (attempt to) write fall prey to at some point or the other; yet, it is sad to see it happen with Pratchett. He might have at least qualified his statements.

Getting back to the bouquets, the most important aspect of his writing, in my opinion, is that he entertains, and does so like no other. In fact, I find him to be the literary equivalent of Quentin Tarantino as far as style (the humour and the general tongue-in-cheek-ness) and the whole pop culture influence thing is concerned, except that his work is more profound, morally stronger and, I think this is important, makes for excellent reading for teenagers/adolescents. It is around this age that they- not so long ago, it was we- are introduced to the books of Ayn Rand, and Objectivism, in my opinion, does not deliver the right message. Rand glorifies unrestrained individualism, capitalism and the self above pretty much everything else; which, while being all very well from a perfectly rational point of view, does not, in my humble opinion, quite cut it in the Real World. As to why I think her philosophy doesn’t cut it, well, that would require a separate post (and extensive re-reading for which, because of corporate stress, interminable coffee breaks and suchlike, I simply do not have the time) in its own right. For now, suffice to say that she doesn't quite achieve the proper balance of things. And the less said about authors like Paulo Coelho and Robin Sharma, the better.

The essays of Russell should, ideally, be part of the curriculum in, say, 12th standard, but his ideas are not easily understood and assimilated, and I suspect even schoolteachers would have a tough time understanding (or even accepting, particularly in India) them. Pratchett, therefore, forms an ideal foil to Russell. The gentle morality that underlies much of his work, his condemnation of war and racism, his views on religion- all expressed through characters that are completely, wonderfully human- make for ideal reading for teenagers/adolescents; an age when, to paraphrase Russell, the ideal world begins to make its claim. The question of which ideal, or which world is worth putting your faith in is a momentous one, and a world like Pratchett’s, where the Death is concerned about the proper balance of things, seems to be better than most.


* More or less. He still has the same effect on human minds; in that they don’t grasp the rather extreme boniness of his, well, bone structure. In other words, they don’t, or rather their brains don’t let them notice that he is a skeleton because, well, people are generally not all (and only) bone, now, are they?

** There is a better word, and it is existence. But I simply couldn’t resist, so I put it in.

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Epilogue

Two months ago.

It's been a while, I know.

Summer's creeping up on Trichy. I can tell by the way when, inevitably, I feel too lazy to get out of my room in the afternoons. And I'm totally, completely an afternoon person- it is the time of the day when I'm at my sharpest, most enthu best. You know, when you feel like doing something. Another sign's the way my jeans feel sticky after a bit of cycling around the campus. And when you can quite literally smell the heat in the air. A faint smell, admittedly, but it is there.

There's nothing to do here in college. Wait, that's not quite right, there are programs to complete, equations to derive, project reports to write, newsletters to edit, blogs to update and quants papers to correct for the nanhe munhe bacche. The difference, I think, lies in the fact that this semester (unfortunately) we actually have the time to do all of the above. Therefore, as is obvious, nothing gets done simply because our arses aren't on fire.

Sometimes I think the only thing I've learnt in four years of engineering is how to deal with the pressure of deadlines.


Well, we're almost done. I'm going to miss these days like crazy; however, strangely enough, I'm looking forward to working. Most of my friends, thankfully, have got postings in Bangalore. At least some things will endure.


Present Day.

Well, we’re done. Yup, that’s right, stand up and clap for the man here, who’s just done with his Bachelor of Technology. Except that he’s not sure he’ll appreciate applause; naaah, not for this, no. Hell, he shakes his head in wonder, it just isn’t sinking in. Pause. Resume head-shaking. When will it, then, he wonders? When he wakes up on one morning too many to find that he doesn’t have to knock his neighbour’s door down for toothpaste? When, once too often, the tea he drinks with breakfast actually serves its intended function of waking him up?

How did it end? In a mockery of a final comprehensive viva wherein we took photographs while writing the preliminary written exam. In a final photo and video session which included a tour of the entire department. Yes, even the bathrooms. Desperate, we were, to take everything back with us. Except we left behind table fans, bags, notebooks, pencils, movies, songs, the LAN, the hostel terrace, oh the hostel terrace.

Thank heavens there’s something left to rediscover when we go back.

The last act, however, was staged in a railway station that we never conceived would see such emotion on display. Pregnant silences that at once left everything and nothing unsaid; long, heartfelt hugs with neither party willing to let go; promises to meet again, to keep in touch, of third degree homicide should either party visit the other’s city and leave unmet; tears- open and discreet; but above all, it ended in emptiness- a hollow feeling that bespoke the realization that a way of life had just been laid to rest, and that this chapter had finally come to a close.

P.S. It's been a while, I know. :)