Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Epilogue

Two months ago.

It's been a while, I know.

Summer's creeping up on Trichy. I can tell by the way when, inevitably, I feel too lazy to get out of my room in the afternoons. And I'm totally, completely an afternoon person- it is the time of the day when I'm at my sharpest, most enthu best. You know, when you feel like doing something. Another sign's the way my jeans feel sticky after a bit of cycling around the campus. And when you can quite literally smell the heat in the air. A faint smell, admittedly, but it is there.

There's nothing to do here in college. Wait, that's not quite right, there are programs to complete, equations to derive, project reports to write, newsletters to edit, blogs to update and quants papers to correct for the nanhe munhe bacche. The difference, I think, lies in the fact that this semester (unfortunately) we actually have the time to do all of the above. Therefore, as is obvious, nothing gets done simply because our arses aren't on fire.

Sometimes I think the only thing I've learnt in four years of engineering is how to deal with the pressure of deadlines.


Well, we're almost done. I'm going to miss these days like crazy; however, strangely enough, I'm looking forward to working. Most of my friends, thankfully, have got postings in Bangalore. At least some things will endure.


Present Day.

Well, we’re done. Yup, that’s right, stand up and clap for the man here, who’s just done with his Bachelor of Technology. Except that he’s not sure he’ll appreciate applause; naaah, not for this, no. Hell, he shakes his head in wonder, it just isn’t sinking in. Pause. Resume head-shaking. When will it, then, he wonders? When he wakes up on one morning too many to find that he doesn’t have to knock his neighbour’s door down for toothpaste? When, once too often, the tea he drinks with breakfast actually serves its intended function of waking him up?

How did it end? In a mockery of a final comprehensive viva wherein we took photographs while writing the preliminary written exam. In a final photo and video session which included a tour of the entire department. Yes, even the bathrooms. Desperate, we were, to take everything back with us. Except we left behind table fans, bags, notebooks, pencils, movies, songs, the LAN, the hostel terrace, oh the hostel terrace.

The last act, however, was staged in a railway station that we never conceived would see such emotion on display. Pregnant silences that at once left everything and nothing unsaid; long, heartfelt hugs with neither party willing to let go; promises to meet again, to keep in touch, of third degree homicide should either party visit the other’s city and leave unmet; tears- open and discreet; but above all, it ended in emptiness- a hollow feeling that bespoke the realization that a way of life had just been laid to rest, and that this chapter had finally come to a close.

P.S. It's been a while, I know. :)

26 Comments:

At 2:03 PM, Blogger tangled said...

I detest writing out a comment eight sentences long only to have it eaten by the browser.

So I loved this post Monkie. It made me smile and made me cry and gave me a lump in my throat and a tear in my eye.
Is it wrong to want sad goodbyes of one's own?

 
At 2:07 PM, Blogger the Monk said...

I don't think so, T. I know I wanted one.

 
At 10:43 AM, Blogger Adorable Pancreas said...

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Sorry about that. The tears blinded me.

 
At 11:37 PM, Blogger Keshi said...

truly beautiful write-up!

** hollow feeling that bespoke the realization that a way of life had just been laid to rest

It seems that u have a knack for putting exact feelings into neatly woven words.

Sad goodbyes...but beautiful memories created.


Keshi.

 
At 2:55 PM, Blogger Jenny Blaze said...

Well, what do u know. I meant to comment here today and you come tripping along to my place. I put up a new post finally :P

U makin me weep for you...

"A way of life laid to rest..."
*wonders if its contagious or is it really nostalgia season everywhere*

 
At 8:42 PM, Blogger Malaveeka said...

Welcome to the hellhole we call life.

It quite wonderful really.

I love it.

 
At 10:10 PM, Blogger Incognito said...

Sometimes I 've wanted to bash up this person whoever came up with this

'All good things must come to an end'.

Seriously, Why?

 
At 3:56 AM, Blogger Camphor said...

"It's a dangerous business, Frodo, going out your door," he used to say.
"You step into the road, and if you don't keep your feet, there is no knowing where you might be swept off to."

(LOTR)

The journey is a joy, no? and the goodbyes make the next turn in the road only more interesting. It makes you love every moment, and cherish even the pain.

 
At 12:35 AM, Blogger Kaushik said...

Sometimes I think the best joys of friendship are in the sad goodbyes. At other times I don't think.

And man do I regret not ever staying in a hostel! Staying with roomies as a bachelor doesn't really come close, I guess.

Good to see you back!

 
At 10:27 PM, Blogger Ellie said...

Ah! yes...the farewell. For mine..we prepared to let the dam loose right at 4 in the morning. But then my train was late, and people hadn't had much sleep all night...so mostly it was a grateful goodbye [meaning : oh for heaven's sake! leave!!! We are sleepy!!!] :-)

Memorable..nevertheless! And yes...welcome back! Joinin which behemoth?

 
At 11:54 PM, Blogger pencil thief said...

ah, nostalgia. more like the beginning of it...
it's nice to know so many people think they'll miss this part of life, because i'm not sure i will. :)

 
At 11:32 PM, Blogger The Darkling Thrush said...

thank you for not making it sappy.

=)
congratulations, graduate!

and bangalore is not that bad. yet.

anyway,
congratulations again, graduate!

 
At 10:37 PM, Anonymous suraksha said...

like always, straordinario!

only a year into the journey, i'm sure i'll come back to this three years from now.

 
At 6:15 AM, Blogger Matangi Mawley said...

ha! nice.. and true: "hw to meet deadlines" is wht u learn..

 
At 10:14 PM, Blogger aria said...

Hmm .. it reminded me how I felt when I finished my graduation. We all go through this .. but its touching all the same .. could feel it in your words ..
Congratulations .. hope you find the job you are looking for and always meet the deadlines even in the future.. :)

 
At 7:25 AM, Blogger Spunky Monkey said...

Congratulations!

Life sucks.

 
At 10:11 AM, Blogger Athulya said...

Hey monk,

Congrats to the new grad, and as usual, an amazing post..

How come there's no new stuff from you? I guess a lot of us are waiting for the next post.. Where ARE you?

 
At 12:00 AM, Blogger udit said...

congratulations..
nostalgia season. I've just finished school. It's bad enough that way, and you write well enough to make me dread graduation. NOT a good thing. im waiting waiting waitinggg for college life to start..

 
At 4:46 AM, Blogger Ketaki said...

Aww :( I hate goodbyes. Which is why I never say anything beyond a general catch you later or i'll call or something. If you do a good job of staying in touch, it eases things up.

All my friends are in different parts of the country and the world :( I know how you feel.

 
At 4:46 AM, Blogger Ketaki said...

and congrats!

 
At 5:46 AM, Blogger Guruprasad Kini (Guru) said...

Man. Know what? Went through the exact same after my BTech. You said it, pal. I would have used the very same words 7 years ago.
[Sigh!]Those were the best days of life indeed.
Anyway, all the best for what lies ahead. Hope to see more blog posts!
Cheers, G

 
At 1:25 AM, Blogger Spectator said...

for once, i felt like we spend four years in getting used to that place n when we realise this is the only place we can survive, it's time to leave !!!!

 
At 6:14 AM, Blogger frissko said...

late in the day to comment on this post...but this took me back to my last day at hostel...a whole 8.5 years ago...and brought back some long forgotten faces to mind...nice one...

 
At 2:26 PM, Blogger dr said...

I read this post more than 10 times. Especially the last paragraph :)

 
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I read this post more than 10 times. Especially the last paragraph :)

 
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